I am seriously hating this state of mine....!
I mean those who loves me will love this
But as of or me I am Hating it......!!
I mean all those Italian Mafia movies and Rajnikanth super flicks, and all those empathy and admiration that i possessed towards them has gone for a waste.........!!!
I have discovered a hard truth of life!!
Something from which i have been running away whole through my life
But this vacation when i spent it with my family i realised it.......!!
"I am not addicted to Cigarettes"
I mean how could this happen to me
Since the day i saw Al`Pacino in scarface i wanted to be an Smoker!!
Be an addict of it
Be a Slave of nicotine
From the first smoke i had i decided that "I am gonna do this till the day it kills me"
But then when i was with family who (which consisted of aunty's nd uncles who can sniff out smell of cigarette from you with the precision of a police dog) I decided to take a break from smoking
Lets do it only when the desperacy levels reach the Apex!!!
one day passed away peace fully nothing is happening
Second day passed and huh...) yes i kinda got tempted to smoke
Third day passed
4th 5th and 6th day also passed
nothing is happening
And finally the weekend came, Horror started running through my veins!!
I could hear voices going in my head
"Face it alex palliveedan you are not an addict"
Yes it was the truth
there was no point in running away from it
It was a reality to be faced
I am not an addict!!
I mean why me!!, How could this happen to me....!!
I was the guy who propagated smoke culture!!
I was the one who wrote articles about smoking (refer the previous blog entry)
But then as the wise ones say
" at times you pretend to be someone but the Genes will eventually expose your real self"
